Happy Valentine's Day!!

My memories of Valentine's Day since School through College and Work time has been my dear family and close friends and other peers.

Wishing each other Happy Valentine's Day, even when all the guys would have their Girlfriends to impress and ask suggestions for selecting gifts to even delivering as a messenger or spying on them. Sneaking on the Couple like interactions of friends inside the campus, hearing their plans.

For me it was exchange of cards or flowers or gifts to each other and amazing fun times. Going out with one of the besties to a small cartwheel stall in College to a Cafe or a restaurant in Work life times to sip a very hot tea or coffee and delicious savouries a day to spend. Wherein, at home it starts with my Mom growing suspicious on me hearing me ask to go out on Valentine's Day and checking my bags and wardrobe for clues, meanwhile me too sneaking on my bro as he would show me the gifts he got but always hid the cards. When in his absence Mom would come searching pretending to clean she would find a few cards and read and I would be the partner in crime and checkout his mobile massage too.

All this were the best days of my life at home and outside home. In all this never felt of actually having an Adult Couple Relationship.

Finally, 6 years back when I tied the knot, so now have an licensed life partner and I am in the actual Adult Couple Relationship thought of the fantasy of a different Valentine's Day kept picturing the moments I have seen and as shown in movies may be it would happen. But in reality the Destiny is such that here I was holding " A Hot Cup of Coffee" in the chilling Winter in USA when actually having the feels of the movie Roja where the the other half is nowhere in the scene. In these years once I made a card with chocolates and once a cheesecake with chocolate coated strawberry, not sure what he felt like never heard any words similar to the feeling of the day. Like the typical dialougue"Main Aur Meri Tanhai" which has not changed till today in terms of a Couple, except I have my own wonderful creation a 5yr old Son little bundle of joy to clinge to who liked what I did. After these attempts never had the courage to do again. Now when preparing for his Valentine's Day party at School. Going to stores seeing the greeting cards section with the colors of Valentine's Day and amazingly attractive merchandises and advertisements trying to control the sudden burst of tears thinking from behind my head may be let me take the card for spouse but its wrong on my part to pop it out to him only to disappoint. So may this is how it is love is never the same before or after marriage as two strangers are tied forever without anything to do with each other, atleast the ones who try relationships and do whatever they want and just move on flipping flopping all the way. Guess its much better view from there.

I still snuggle with the warmth of the cup of coffee or tea in my hands rewinding the good and overwhelming memories with still eagerly waiting for a Valentine to come my way. Feel that Im not made to be a Valentine but an Cupid.

Wish you all the very feeling of the most touching red,pink, purple and white colors enjoy being yourself and believing in yourself.

From the well wisher Cupid it is.